the grief hits especially hard at night

I drink wine now, even though as a kid I hated the taste. I used to think we got more complex as we aged but then I see people my age or older who are still just kids. I saw a video of me when I was four. My laugh was exactly the same. Maybe we don’t develop a taste for more complex flavors like coffee and wine, we can just withstand more unpleasantness, so much so that we start to like it.

The sparrow and the widow tug of war the bagel at my feet

I just saw a COYOTE on a greenways trail

whoever called me a “dense bean salad” needs to apologize asap

it’s literally crazy to feel the need to do that

whoa i was gonna come on here and talk some shit and be goofy but whoever used the actual n word can fucking get bent

when you read about God, it’s written in the language of men and language can only represent a false image of God. If you know God in a way that transcends language, that is true worship.

alexithymia is such a beautiful name for a girl

déjuener

the word lunch is just terrible

at some points in my life i’ve stopped being an artist, stopped being a writer and i live like a ghost of myself without any fulfillment and all longing at some point, something has to change

who tf is using a hard r

What did he do

Wait ok I missed the tea

shut up niggers

Did the older people act the same way about brad pitt as this generation does about chappel roan

bruhhhh

people be telling on themselves LOL

Hi

Card only. No public restrooms.

Did they respond?

My stomach is sad

Anyone from Florida online?

All that is rests in the tension between bouba and kiki

just got invited to join a polygamy cell! apparently they just fired someone!

Just got kicked out of the polygamy cell

I think its only crazy to contact someone if theyve made it clear they dont wanna talk to you. Were humans were supposed to interact

i have done it

Maybe not

You know I was just wondering that yesterday

is it crazy to contact someone you barely met a year ago

I never know what im feeling

the chimichurri changed me

I’m so physically anxious today

no treats for me :(

Everyone that hasn’t posted about being from the same town as Chappell Roan gets a treat

yesssssssssss

if everybody is worthy of everything then the spectrum of worth does not exist and is an imaginary concept. worth is not the question; the question is will you allow yourself happiness?

I stg Kirtsy get OUT OF MY CHAT

namaste away from me

just realized i spent the last year in total emotional disconnection from myself because i didn’t want to admit i was feeling anything

sometimes a normal night just becomes a turning point in life

it’s whatever we want baby

Does anyone actually know what this place is. Its just saved on my homescreen

oh my stars

I can feel god in this rubber tonight

sometimes spiraling out of control is actually spiraling through the chaos into control

there are certain people who should get the Fuck away from me

the spirit is moving us all to speak on rubber

this website is like that scene in fleabag where they go to the quaker meeting

somebody love me before i perish

omg

Saw a fox throw up a few days ago it was kind of cute

being good is being god

when i’m sane i wanna kms

i love being insane

oh my good i mean god i mean god is good i mean good is god who out here distrusting love when love is patient who out here trusting distrust when trust is innocence

babe wake up new rubber feature just dropped

rubber.is/random

The butterflies in your stomach are a trauma bond about to happen 🦋👐

Why do I still love people who literally never liked me

once a week, I bleed, then forget all about it

I thought I was done with grief but grief creeps in through cracks of soft love where I thought the flow had clotted

how to be emotionally open and loving after being gaslit for having emotions and getting my heart broken?

when will i obtain the ever elusive love i desire

coulda told u that

8 am class was a mistake i fear

Dissociating at Dollar General

I want to have babies

Sometimes projection is more comfortable than confronting reality

Or no goodness without the contrast of evil...at this point I don't think it's possible for one or the other to exist in a vacuum

if you have any intentions at all, you will make mistakes; like how there is no shadow without light.

i want to get better at identifying people who project really badly bc what happened in my last relationship can never happen again

ppl really be telling on themselves bc one time this guy accused me of faking my emotions and i was like who thinks that’s what’s happening and then answer is people who do that. projection is so real.

constant low level depression with moments of almost joy in between

Made peanutbutter fudge last night. So awesome

being unbothered is so fun unfortunately i am bothered (by grief)

i’m a fruit

Wut

letting males hit

unbothered. moisturized. happy. in my slut era.

amor fati

HBD Ruby!

i hope i do soon

I feel like I’m returning home (eeeeee!!!)

I’m so excited

are we in heaven yet

Do you even believe what you fear

Thx

pornhub.com

I love being analytical I think this allows you to really understand how something works and creatively rethink it or come up with new ideas exciting stuff

a relationship is equal parts remembering yourself, and considering another

I still feel the lingering; how i felt when you were on your way over; still excited to see you even after years of being with you every day. I still remember how I loved spending time with you. I remember badly I wanted you to like me.

someone told me that i seem asexual and i was so offended but then i was like wait i hide any sexuality from most people out of insecurity so it makes sense

note to self: just because you feel like things are lacking in your life doesn’t give you an excuse to “feel sorry for yourself” and cross boundaries with yourself and others because you feel like you deserve whatever it is you don’t have. You may deserve it but feeling sorry for yourself is not an energy that will bring it towards you.

i want to be honest. I want to love without worrying if i’m loved back. I want to laugh without worrying if im being too loud or too much. I want to accept that I am loved and that not everything is high stakes. I want to make connections without fearing that my attachment will push them away

sometimes a feeling will permeate everything for weeks or months. memories will come up attached to the feeling. I am usually aware of several possible causes, but this imagined moment that i wait for; the moment of discovering the cause and beginning a journey to heal never comes. I understand now the cause is never as important as the decision to move on from the feelings and events that brought me to that state in the first place. Healing is not an analytical process.

who to conjure for a specific vibe: analytical yapper: sighswoon sexy and flirty: shakira moody and poetic: Hope sandoval

do u guys think i fucked up